new years

Starting the night, I went over to mom's house and ate dinner at the Panda Express with her and Joe. Then watched Walk the line and Mama Mia.
After the movies, I figured that Johnny would have been awake by then and I quickly drove home before midnight got around to be with him....

Got home.. and Johnny said he only slept for an hour.. which meant he was still tired as shit. So...

I sat there...
Watching tv....
while he slept next to me...
the ball dropped....
and I kissed him ever so lightly...
and brought him to bed.

Then I went back to the love sac and watched the rest of the new years eve show.. I thought to myself, "This isn't how I wanted to spend this night."
I shed a tear or two b/c I realized I just spent that one special second.. pretty much alone.

and sober for that matter...
*sniff*
well... my new years resolution is to gain a back bone to life and get fit enough for my cruise trip with Adam this upcoming summer vacation.
and to work much harder on my spring semester classes.

happy new yr.